I'm staying at home today because I have the flu.
Recently, things are getting really weird for me because: 1. I have just admitted my feelings to one of my guy friends from the office (who was the one who comforted me when my best friend broke my heart), 2. I told my best friend about it (we're friends again) and 3. I don't really think the guy I like really likes me that much to begin with.
Why would he? I'm not pretty.
I kind of get a bit annoyed with one of my girl friends whenever she says that I should not rush things and why couldn't I just be happy? Why am I already investing feelings when clearly he doesn't seem to reciprocate it, in a way?
Well, maybe because I am unhappy with myself for not being up to his standards? You see, this guy I like - he liked my friend (the one I'm so annoyed with) and I still think he does - even if she'll never reciprocate his feelings because he's not her type (he's skinny and super tall - she likes buff guys).
I like him a lot - but I have no idea how to go from there, really. I leave him notes every morning to encourage him (and for him to believe me that I really DO like him, and I'm not joking), but I don't think it's working.
He was so down and his self-esteem was so low last time because he ranted that she would never like him because he's not sporty or buff or handsome or rich. Well, sad to say my types are skinny guys - and I get so attracted to them when they're..down. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just sick like that - or maybe I want to be the one who makes it all better for them.
I just want him to feel loved.
Recently, things are getting really weird for me because: 1. I have just admitted my feelings to one of my guy friends from the office (who was the one who comforted me when my best friend broke my heart), 2. I told my best friend about it (we're friends again) and 3. I don't really think the guy I like really likes me that much to begin with.
Why would he? I'm not pretty.
I kind of get a bit annoyed with one of my girl friends whenever she says that I should not rush things and why couldn't I just be happy? Why am I already investing feelings when clearly he doesn't seem to reciprocate it, in a way?
Well, maybe because I am unhappy with myself for not being up to his standards? You see, this guy I like - he liked my friend (the one I'm so annoyed with) and I still think he does - even if she'll never reciprocate his feelings because he's not her type (he's skinny and super tall - she likes buff guys).
I like him a lot - but I have no idea how to go from there, really. I leave him notes every morning to encourage him (and for him to believe me that I really DO like him, and I'm not joking), but I don't think it's working.
He was so down and his self-esteem was so low last time because he ranted that she would never like him because he's not sporty or buff or handsome or rich. Well, sad to say my types are skinny guys - and I get so attracted to them when they're..down. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just sick like that - or maybe I want to be the one who makes it all better for them.
I just want him to feel loved.
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